Esto no es mala leche, ya es leche cortada.

A ver, por dónde empezar...

Estuve tan deprimida que me dediqué a trabajar como adicta. Y eso me hizo alejarme de todo: internet, blogs, etc. Pero cuando volví y les conté a los fantasmas lectores de este blog que estaba triste, ninguno de los muchísimos conocidos mandó un mail o marcó el teléfono para preguntarme cómo estoy. No es que sea una situación fuera de lo común, pero me sentí un poquito más infeliz por eso.
Y me emputa. Todo en la vida, el maldito y lluvioso día de hoy, me da en la madre. Todo. Y por eso hablo con canciones, porque espero que alguien entienda qué siento, sin tener que gritárselo a nadie en el oído. Es una mierda. Ni siquiera puedo ser cínica hoy.
¿Qué me pasa? Que mi vida se desmorona. Que tengo 34 años y me siento sola, desalmada y cansada de todo. Que necesito tirar una noche entera, pero más que eso, necesito que alguien me lo pida. Que mi trabajo es espectacular pero emocionalmente agotador y vitalmente condenado al fracaso. Que me he dado cuenta de que cargo con heridas muy profundas y de hace muchos años, abiertas y llenas de porquería. Que extraño a mi papá. Que no tengo un puto peso. Que quiero hacer un alto y lanzar el ancla y descansar... Y no puedo. Que estoy gorda y no soy capaz de hacer dieta. Que me puse a repasar mi libreta de teléfonos y no tuve a quién llamar.

Eso me pasa. Ahora, si pongo una puta canción para decir todo eso y espero que me entiendan... Definitivamente mejor me piso.
Igual, le hablo a la pared.

AIM AT ME

I don’t want you to go, but I don’t want you to stay
I want to have you in a box where no one else would be safe
I want to know how I feel, I want to know who I am, know me again
know me again

I need to find a way out to shut the voice in my head
Im trying to do what is right but things work out on the left
My god stands on the ground, your spirit is up in the air floating away
floating away

Your wings are burning in the sky so high, you know that I'm the reason why

So aim at me, I'm your soul tear, aim at me
Stop this hurting man from harming your betrayed love
So aim at me, I'm the one who's wrong, aim at me
banish me from your head and heart, erase what I have done

Now that I'm drowning in time I need a fast getaway
I'm guilty as charged for a crime and I don’t want to be saved
My wisdom is growing on you, your hope is dying in me, wasted away
wasted away

I can't create a new world an odd king woke up the dead
The show is falling apart , the faith has come to an end
The bond that used to be white slowly is turning to black, fading away
fading away

Your eyes are blinded by the light, so bright this light, you know that I'm the reason why

So aim at me, I'm your soul tear, aim at me
Stop this hurting man from harming your betrayed love
So aim at me, I'm the one who's wrong, aim at me
Banish me from your head and heart, erase what I have done

Dry off your bleeding heart, Dry off your bleeding heart away
Dry off your bleeding heart, Dry off your bleeding heart away

So aim at me, I'm your sour tear, aim at me
Stop this hurting man from harming your betrayed love
So aim at me, I'm the one who's wrong, aim at me
Banish me from your head and heart erase what I have done

The Hall Effect

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Para mi amigo Turin...

Let me run with you tonight
Ill take you on a moonlight ride
Theres someone I used to see
But she dont give a damn for me

But let me get to the point, lets roll another joint
And turn the radio loud, Im too alone to be proud
You dont know how it feels
You dont know how it feels to be me

People come, people go
Some grow young, some grow cold
I woke up in between
A memory and a dream

So lets get to the point, lets roll another join
tLets head on down the road
Theres somewhere I gotta go
And you dont know how it feels
You dont know how it feels to be me

My old man was born to rock
Hes still tryin to beat the clock
Think of me what you will
I got a little space to fill

So lets get to the point, lets roll another joint
Lets head on down the road
Theres somewhere I gotta go
And you dont know how it feels
No, you dont know how it feels to be me

Tom Petty

Comin down is the hardest thing...

Well I started out down a dirty road
Started out all alone
And the sun went down as I crossed the hill
The town lit up the world got still

Im learning to fly but I aint got wings
Comin down is the hardest thing
Well the good old days may not return
And the rocks might melt, and the sea may burn

Im learning to fly but I aint got wings
Comin down is the hardest thing
Well some say life will beat you down
Break your heart, steal your crown

So I started out for God knows where
But I guess Ill know when I get there
Im learning to fly around the clouds
But what goes up must come down

Im learning to fly but I aint got wings
Comin down is the hardest thing
Im learning to fly around the clouds
But what goes up must come down
Im learning to fly
Im learning to fly

Tom Petty